給妳的一封信。

一些時候，很想對妳說，放個假，充電一下。

想說，也許一切來得太快，太唐突。難免，妳會覺得壓迫，有種沒了自由的想法。但妳得明白，改不了的只好接受，接受不了的，狠點，果決一點，爲了讓自己重生。

記得我隻身去了中國前後，有了种"人生原來不過是這樣"的想法。辛勞地工作，失去了好多自由，也思考過生命的意義，到頭來，一切只不過是個過程。像場電影，像到的士尼樂園玩一趟。得到想要的，錯過摯愛的。時間到，回頭看去，我們好像失去了什麽。卻看不見，得到了寶貴的全部。至少，我們走過了。

把未來看得太重，會形成難以下嚥的壓力的。同時，也會令身邊人難以親近的。會否，我們想得太多太遠？試想，誰想和一個喋喋不休的人一起旅行？老實説，我也會抗拒的。和朋友散散心，讓彼此能有考量的空間，關係，才有重生的可能。不用放不下，不必覺得自私，我們不過是在爲了更美好的可能，休息。

還有，前些天，妳在電話那頭笑說：以後沒有才可怕。我還以爲，妳終于明白了，看懂了，心裏為妳舒了口氣。沒想到，好像還是一樣。的確，一個人有自由的瀟灑，可一個人的寂寞，妳還看不見。我還是有想有人陪的時候的。有人說我：爲什麽我總是很開心的？爲什麽？我比較能夠釋懷吧。

聼我說：放個假，長長的假。妳可以和他簡單地在家裏，享天倫樂。也可以，回到我們的老地方，陪陪家人，等待我們回去和妳吃塊蛋糕，喝杯咖啡。大可以，和姐妹知己，卸下所有的包袱，往另一片天空翺翔，享受片刻的安寧。

當然，重要的，還是溝通。任何人事物，少了溝通，是不能圓滿的。別以爲悶不吭聲，是不想説話。一些時候，是我們沒聼懂，聼不進耳，他人才選擇沉默的。學會聼，遠比會説來得好。

我們，馬六甲以前的朋友，都願意陪妳喝茶聊天的。重要的是，妳得先踏出自己的框框，作出正確的協調。相信妳，要相信自己。路很長，時間很短。我們，總得學會成長。

祝：開心！真正的，簡單地。

好多意外...

昨晚，意外地，朋友寄了封簡訊，送來給我兩張“每當變換時”的電影票。

感謝她，千里迢迢，冒著被人拐掉的危機，香汗帶來的粘膩，辛苦地特地為我送來。和她吃了份午餐，AA制。所以，特別感激她。意外地，淚流不出，但我會收在心裏。

到了該前往電影院的時間，差點停止了心跳，票不見了。八成是半路意外掉了。心想：會被兩個人殺掉的，一個是她，另一個是趕來看免費的友人。幾經巧合，我們最後意外地合著一群沒有尊嚴的物體，擠進了電影院。朋友問我：他們來查票怎麽辦？我囘他：要來查的話，有一半的人得出場。厚臉皮，就是這种好處。

喜歡E臣在電影裏的傻呆，簡單地，對於感情的固執。傻耿耿的喜歡，直直的關懷，由別人來演，也許沒有那麽地貼心。

千嬅演的賣魚女，不過不失。也許，像朋友說的，她終在演囘自己。

結局意外地不如想象。但那也是對的。我們的時光，好的爛的，得到的遺憾的，終究會過去，一切不過是段過程。好幾段鏡頭，看得我熱淚差點掉下來，怪了。好像，裏頭人物的無奈，我也感受到了。會心淺笑，也因爲看見了感情的重要，微小的窩心。

我們，都好像錯過了什麽。而，成就了現在的我們。

順道：別意外看了我的blog而以爲電影特別好看，失望別怪我。我不負責的。哈哈！

Re-hollering Spice?!

Again the rumors are floating. & we've heard about the same thing yet get disappointed 4 times. But could THIS TIME possibly true enough to end it all & to make the whole world go ga-ga? Will Spice Girls get whole? At last?

They're so huge. Conquering the whole world by storm with no remarkable talents single bodied. It's some kind of legend honestly. Did anyone really found each of them so fascinating back then? No, no one ever managed to escape. Like them or not, they're a haunting phenomenon. & they're never to forget.

It's been years since the released of "Spice". The band highly acclaimed debut which topped the world by storm. They offered great catchy tunes like "Wannabe","Spice Up Your Life" & "Who Do You Think You Are". Yet their ballads like "Mama", "2 Become 1" & "Viva Forever" still managed to impressed. Flawlessly.

Since Geri left the group, & shocked the world back in 1999, they offered "Goodbye" & tried to offered an album more R&B later on, but called it a quit sooner than we thought. But "Holler" & "Let Love Lead The Way" still at best.

Then they all went on solos. 4 of them managed to scored a UK no.1 singles except Mrs. Beckham. 4 of them being mums, Melanie C the exception. Slowly they moved on. Each on their separate profession. Though they may never get huge like they did before, but they're always there. We're waiting. I'm waiting. 4 them to reunite as 1.

Of course I'm not expecting them to do some fancy dance or shouting loud again, but it's magical seeing 5 of them get on stage together, faces over the media, most of all, an album worth dying 4. There's news of world tours & album in the future, but I never put any high hopes, as the definite confirmations not there. Yet.

Wow. All Saints returned with a nice song. Take That came back with a splendid "Patience". May Spice Girls be next? Sooner than we thought again? Haha. I'm waiting & always will. The day will be the day a dream come true. "I'll kill 4 the tickets" I read this somewhere regarding their possible reunited concert. I'll...do the same as well. :)

PS: Dear Melanie C, don't let us down this time.

端午夜宵。

粽子。

一團感覺有點肥膩的糯米和肥肉，裹在蕉葉裏，下鍋煮得滾瓜爛熟，然後香味再慢慢湧現，形成一種美妙。加了栗子香菇的，或含有咸黃鴨子蛋的，再不然娘惹藍白相間的，一一令人回味無窮。兒時的回憶，總是無窮的。

上了KL，爲了生活打拼，又或説是沉澱于迷宮大都會裏，好多好滋味，已難以尋囘。老家裏的媽媽，對鄰的aunty，是否還會爲了一串串的古早味，冒著汗地忙碌？

昨晚，意外地，接到了通電話。那是先前的同事員工，體諒我的"孤苦"，想給我帶來兩顆肉粽。他等我放工下班了，半夜一點方才約了我在某家mamak會面。奇怪吧？在一堆猴兒穿梭的地方，大刺刺地將肉粽擺放著。

沒有熱茶下伴，也爲了讓老板有點顔面，我點了份nasi goreng chicken chop和杯apple juice。我們聊了好久，他不停地說我誰都喜歡，誰的CD都買。而我也不甘示弱地譏他除了錢以外，還是錢。我們還對先前老闆的爛，和現今大專生的稚，懷著一致的想法。我們，像兩只絕了种的怪胎，嘮叨嬉笑了整晚。

回到家裏，已將近五點了，八點還得起身。我將先前的粽子，輕輕懸挂于尼泊爾外勞房門外，讓他們起身后享用。畢竟，我還真是撐不下它們了。

忘了屈原爲何投江自盡。更不知道爲何稱作端午節。只知道，粽子爲何而來。也明白，情誼因何而有。溫馨還在，我們，還是幸福的。

Oh...He's Eizlan Yusof!

I was on my way to work yesterday. Nite shift. I prefer to have a morning shift though.

When I almost reached my outlet, I was stunned seeing a small group of photographers busy with their cameras. Wow. It's a surprise seeing some Malay artist having a movie promo there. & in the middle of the group is the artist whom I know better. He had a numberous movie & ad. Charming as he is. Luckily I brought my cam with me then only this photo here exist.

I rushed to my outlet & informed the manager on duty to allow me having a tiny break. I told her the truth: blah blah blah is outside. I was intended to get his autograph. & I better be fast. 4 sure I looked kinda silly at that time.

I took a marker & a CB card. He'd moved nearer to my outlet. & shooting something outside. I walked nearer. Pretending I'm not nervous. Then I asked his assistant ( ? ) 4 the permission to collect yet another autograph. "Wait" he said, telling to let the artist finished with his shoot 1st.

I waited there & I asked him: "Siapa artist ini?" Idiot huh? Wanting something but never knowing who he is. "Eizlan Yusof" he answered. "Oh ok. Kawan saya sangat minat pada dia." I cheated. To covered my idiotic behavior. Then the guy told me they're promoting their new movie which is hitting cinemas in August. Impak Masima. If I'm not mistaken...

Eizlan saw me waiting. Then I showed him my intention to have his autograph. He agreed & approached to me minutes later. He left his signature & a line 4 me. Again I told him the same lie before to cover myself. Haha. I shake his hand, thanked him & wishing him have a nice day. He smiled & said thanks.

Then I returned to my position. Gelled my hair & started my duty. I must've looked very stupid showing Eizlan my bird nest hairstyle. Hmm.

泯滅的曙光。

前些天，晚上我窩在家裏。忙了一早，還約了朋友晚場的Fantastic 4。小歇了一會兒，我起身準備，時間也差不多了。

那時，我先寄居的地方，兩只小活潑還在。他們年級和我相近，可個子卻比我小好多，看起來小不鈴鐺地。他們，是我先前的員工。尼泊爾來的外勞。

喜歡他們用心處事的性格。累得快昏了，還總是勉強地擠開笑臉。欣賞他們對於人事的明白體諒，知道分寸的拿捏。和他們共事的時候，有他們在總可以安心一些。

他們要出去買晚餐，會問我要些什麽。不想讓他們難堪，我常會說：OK, anything。他們肯定會買一些白飯，roti canai，還有幾塊炸雞。加起來，將近十五零吉，相對于三百尼泊爾錢幣。想象得來嗎？他們青了的臉，換來的也許只有二百零吉而已。

我們圍在一起，簡單地用餐。我會泡杯喜歡的Nescafe，他們則簡單地飲用白水。畢竟，他們還是較爲喜歡奶茶的。聼著他們的嘮叨，述説著我前任老闆的無知，還有現今員工的狡詐。偶爾，他們會要我囘去的。想想，老闆換人，我也可以考慮。會和他們說說笑笑，雖然，一些時候，他們是聼不懂我說詞的。

懂得適可而止，我想，很多人都必須學懂。外勞和花果山的猴兒，誰較爲可靠，也較爲用心？見仁見智，的確。試想，用心工作的部分，得不到較好的安撫報酬，誰都會放棄的吧？看不過眼多數人對外勞的歧視，可懂得管理，方能將優秀的留下，整體的運作才能全面。一個人累壞了進院，還得扣工資，勉強留下的，也會慢慢變質。簡單的嬉哈做作，不是更好？

想起之前，在某雜誌裏看過：管理和領導的分別。領導人可以帶領團隊向前向上，管理人著只會跟著規條走。可悲的是，我想，很多人連兩者都無法辦好，盲目地想要業績，一味地逃避身為老闆上司的責任。他們放棄關懷體諒，停止觀察學習。於是乎，外勞開始湧現，猴兒開始作怪，我們也處於惡劣的生活裏。

始終相信，用心的人，也許沒有他人來得卓越，卻也應當得以重視。看過，經歷過，用心的工作者，流下心灰的淚。沒有人重視，也許有人明瞭，但又能怎樣？老闆看不見的部分，我們只好默默地忍受。堅持，不能忘了自己。他日，會有成果的美好。

看見小活潑的淚光閃爍，仿佛明白他們的辛勞。一天將近十四小時的勞累，為的，還不是遠方家人的溫飽？

先前有人說我不夠城市化，那是說我的心不夠狠？不能對他們同情，是正確的管理之道？

人性在腐敗，我們只能承認。

有了聯係，才有其它。

昨夜，自己一個人，緩緩步行至鄰近的書局，看看。

逛了CD部，發現沒有什麽新上架的佳作。幸好，不用亂花錢。現在還聼著Melanie C的"This Time"，生日禮物，哥哥送的。

看了看文學角落，也沒有吸引的新貨。霎那，想起了還有短短幾星期便起飛的旅程，便循著旅遊書籍的柜頭，找些有用的手冊。要用的倒沒找着，卻翻到了關於上海的旅點，翻起了之前的回憶。那一點的聯係。

像侯文詠在他的講座上提過的：我們到了某個地方，便開始有了聯係。他來到去過了大馬和西巴丹等地，留下了一些回憶，一丁點感動。以後，回到臺灣，看見關於大馬的新聞，便牽起了過往。看過行過的大樓小巷，開始有了屬於自我的故事。

原來，我行過的街道，嘗過的鮮美，會有了生命，似有還無地圍繞著我。想起了上海的地鐵站頭的標示。回憶起了哪些街道的名稱。發現原來嘗過的甜美，是它們當紅的必薦，那時，我可是不知道的。還有，一點對於北京天壇的了解。哪怕微不足到，只怕錯過了太多。

撇去中國上海北京，我還有好多過往的聯係。像好多年前和朋友驅車到了Perhentian，他們偶爾會拿來胡鬧的"牛"。更早以前在Langkawi的嬉鬧，還有那時朋友的彆扭。金馬倫草莓，忘不了的鮮甜美好。

人事萬物，其實也是一樣。從以前上課的天真，如來神掌的笑話。和朋友第一囘的認識，吃roti planta的邂逅。金井。Wings。Oldtown。時光牽走了我們，卻帶不走所有的聯係。

以後，會和更多的人事物產生聯係，也許不能記得全部，但若能泛起淺淺的感動，已足夠。不盡完美，但我也有了屬於我的故事。

順道：公司裏的訓練部負責人，即將前往杜白不知搞什麽Q。羡慕死我！希望他能帶些什麽回來，kurma以外的。

I Wouldn't Mind Going... Bi!!

OK. At 1st I was about to write down something about Fantastic 4: Rise Of The Silver Surfer. Which I watched last nite & surprisingly it turned out slightly better than my expectations. Now I'm more interested on the breathtaking duo, Sue & Johnny Storm. A.k.a Invisible Woman & The Human Torch. Or Jessica Alba & Chris Evans in reality.

Wow. They are such a super stunner. Of course nobody among my list of bachelor frens wouldn't feel a tight in the crotch placing their eyes on Ms. Alba! She's been hot since the 1st episode & in the latest she seemed more mature. Never really followed her filmography but she's always on top list in any poll of the sexiest alive. Undeniable though. A pretty face with an innocent smile. A killer body figure with the finest tanned. What else can we ask 4 more? Probably a twin of her will be just nice. & we wouldn't want her to be invisible of course.

Chris. Spectacular masculinity 100% body & the perfect chest fur. Which will make most of the guys Shrek-alike & all the sissies temperature rising. Some more he's equipped with a charm which make him almost flawless. Seeing him half naked in both episode of F4 is just make sense enough. The intentions of the director are obvious. Up selling his good body to create a larger crowd. But wouldn't we like to be him, be with him or be far from him? All & each would make us feel better. Hmm.

They are young & they are unbearable. I just found out Mr.Flame On is barely 2 days younger than me. My gosh. Hope to catch both of them over the big screen more often. & pirated stuff if they showing their parts which would get scissored upon our beloved country. Until then, dreams on. Wet as you wish.

PS:F4 sequel is really better. The plot the effect the characters. But it's still got plenty possibility of getting better. We would wanna see more of the chest...both of them. & a more powerful ( not gay-ish ) Dr. Doom please. Sorry Norrin. You're kinda outwitted this time.

It's twenty-6!

It was again the day.

I've made a deal with frens to spend some time indulging my most anticipated Haagen-Dazs Fondue. But...I never get what I expected. Instead, I get far far more than expectation.

Eve. I had Sakae sushi with some buddies. We were all tired at that time. Even myself had the thought to just lay low profile at home. But surprisingly I get a Tee & a cap as my birthday gift. Though my fren forgot the fact that a normal human being's cap wouldn't fit mine. Haha. The inari had been wonderful. & the tiny little pot of the chicken soup was amazing. As if we are having a plain water.

The day.I got asked out to a MD by a knowledgeable beauty, whom skin are as soft & tender like bean curd. Used to. Haha. She bought me a terrible looking cake. Honestly. It's a Japanese Cheese accordingly. But it taste great. The light cheese somehow melting in your mouth & you're not jelak at all. I would've finished the cake by myself. If I have a body like Shrek's.

At 9.30pm. I'm all left to the Starbucks freako. He gathered up a gang of lousy looking bachelors, & we had dessert in 記得食. The shop would never be quiet & calm when all those maniacs unite. Nonsense & that's all needed to cheer things up...

It's a pleasure really to still having frens who's sincere & true. Appreciate the time spent together even it's nothing of a big celebration. We've all grown up & getting busy with responsibilities. It's nice if they remember & they care. A simple thing means alot. & when we look back someday, they are all the ones that mattered most.

Thanx to my brother 4 the luxurous CDs. & Yap who's turned out to be the shocking 1st greeting. & all those SMS, calls & mails. Of course those we hanged out together, & those too busy & forget my birthday. It's a miracle. & it always beautiful.

& I've made my wishes upon the star before blewing off the candles. I hope they come true. Which I only knows if they did. : )

我連書也簽了！

前些天，赴了兩場演說會。

侯文詠。一個聼過，但不熟悉的名字。直到，上個周末。他架著副眼鏡，斯文彬彬地樣子。一直以來，我所到的，不外是些風靡少男嫩女的偶像歌手的簽唱會，握著的是CD，多是銀色的簽名。沒想過，又或，也不知爲何，忽然，想到這些演說會瞧瞧。

看他滔滔不絕，很用心地演説，不用很奢華的舞臺，也沒有俊朗的外表，已將所有人的目光俘虜。第一晚，在星洲活動中心，名為"我們的天才夢"。然後在KLCC Convention Centre的第二場，不一樣的題材。喜歡他述說故事的方式，還有那麽點的幽默。嚴肅，卻不沉重。

"文學是不會停止成長的。停止成長的，是我們。是作家，是讀者" 那是正確的。什麽時候，我們開始覺得，以前好喜歡的作家，好崇拜的歌手，運動家；開始不怎麽樣了。是我們視野不同了，看的想的不一樣了，所以會開始轉變。應該慶幸，也應當感激。我們會慢慢成長，而之前的偶像，是我們當中的滋養。世事萬千，也有著同樣的道理。

他用孔雀開屏的故事，解説了世事的不經意。他人守在孔雀前，等它開屏。而它終會在他們離遠了，再徐徐綻放。錯過了的，也許，會是另些人的幸運。實在地，我們會不自覺與好多事情錯開，也不盡然如願。將想法稍作調整，會發現另一种感動，也會學懂釋懷。

正如，以前的我，會覺得很多事情爲何不能如意。會將很多的假設，加註于自個兒的理由裏頭。執著，任性，對於他人，會形成一種壓力。尤其，那些將我看得較重的他們。現在回想，會有點遺憾，還有些許感傷，可也因爲那時，我有了現在。現今未必最好，可那時也不代表全部。學懂了，才對於往事，能以微笑帶過。現今，我們會好好維護之。

買了侯文詠的"白色巨塔"和"危險心靈"，排了兩囘隊伍，讓他簽名了兩輪，和他握手言謝了兩次。還沒有真正讀過他的作品，但我還是可以消化的，從中會有別番領悟。不一樣的領悟。

順道：王安憶的演説會。我也到了。也許是我的程度不同，對她沒有太大的仰慕。但我還是買了"長恨歌"，相信有一天，我會將它一頁頁看完，然後，向更多更好的邁進。

夠了。

終于，作了個決定。痛定思痛，不想再受委屈，夠了。

以前，偶爾，你會對我發發脾氣，我也默默承受。想說，你也需要安慰，也應該被保護。我們朝夕夜對，彼此應該更爲了解體諒，卻不知爲何，你變了。

我換了工作，還有必須要努力的地方。很久，沒有了那麽標準的生活，看著朝陽上班，隨著所有上班族放工回家。路途遠了點，所以，盼望著你的眷顧。可你沒有，常對我發脾氣，發難。一囘，兩囘，連我對你那難測的心情，有了保留。我也會累，真的。

爲了表示不滿，也讓我們的關係得以保存，我買了：雨衣。黃澄澄的那种。

套在身上，還真有點像某電訊公司的yellowman。會否，當我黃黃地，在你的控訴之中，騎著小摩多上下班，有人會以爲，我在賣廣告。

希望你看懂我的苦處，然後控制你的情緒。夜黑人靜時，你哭訴，我會拍掌叫好。很多人都會的，我想。

A World Without Thieves?! Nah.

I'm pissed.

It's been quite a while since my last. In a matter of ways. Can anyone imagine you found your "most important" belongings taken without permission, some more it's kinda no way to get it back or stained & spoilt returned? This is what happening. & I'm really holding a breath of fire in my throat now.

After I left my previous company, I cleaned & arranged my stuff from the hostel room, & left the room to some others to live in. But I left all my books, CDs etc in the living room, which holds my bed now as well whilst I'm looking 4 a new place.

Then I started realising my CDs growing foots. At 1st I'm Ok with it, thinking that those "educated" frens from far would know what they're doing, they might borrowed them & give me back nice & steady. But it's proven I'm wrong. 100% totally wrong.

When I asked them, they smiled & pushy. "Nolah, just borrow lah." With the face fake enough to get an award. Then you get 1 or 2 back today, the next day somebody else take it. Do they think I'm God sent to provide them everything?

That's not all. I checked on all my CDs, & I was almost dead fainting. There's a writing "Victoria Beckham" on the VB CD, using liquid paper, as if they're reminding themselves that's the songs of the poshy Spice. & you get a copied CD in the cover, which you never see the original.

I'm missing some of my favorite. & those are super expensive in comparison.

Pissed. Really. I respect & believe in them but this is what I got. It appears to be the higher educated they are, the less moral they obtain. It's abit of disappointments as well. Understanding there's fewer people who knows the bits to make the world go round.

會有，那麽一天的可能。

新公司。

訓練部門的負責人，在那裏服務了整整九年。九年，一個我不能消化的數字。對他不甚了解，卻覺得，該蠻好相處的。因爲那張開起來文質彬彬的臉孔，很親切，被騙倒大有可能。知道他在各閒分店服務了很久，加入訓練部也還不足一年。心想，very loyal，正如他誇耀自己時，說的。

昨天，連同其他幾位同等輩分的新同事，到了Ampang分店，接受另一些訓練。一起忙了開心了整個上午，到了中午時分，肚子早閙了場革命。他邀了我們新人共同用餐，吃釀豆腐。點了些有的沒的，我們邊吃邊聊。

說真的，對他存有幾分敬意。那是我的原則，要我服從，請有個樣。當我知道，他在2003年，曾到上海三星期，協助成立全中國第一家"香啡繽"，不禁讚嘆，同時羡慕起來。立刻問他：我們是否有可能到新加玻或美國的Coffee Bean打工？答案是，可能。我們可以申請看看。

忽地，想法天馬行空了。

好想好想，到美國打工。想象著，外頭飄下細細白雪，店裏三兩的客人，悠游地，窩在沙發上，享受著屬於他們的時光。咖啡機咯咯作響，濾著香濃的Espresso，附和著Almond Biscotti的淡雅咸香，還有Air Supply的"I'm All Out Of Love"，繪出一段美好。

又或，在上海，炎熱的夏，摩登上海小姐夾著半咸不淡的英語，向我們要杯：大bou 卡puci諾。她們自負地，沉醉于，自認爲高尚的下午。也許，她們會看著Spicy Tuna Linguine，大聲問：有筷子嗎？再來客Opera，三口作兩口扒完，翹起屁股，走人。

新加玻。不耐煩的上班族，黑臉地列在隊伍裏，浪費著他們寶貴的寸金。Caramel latte regular, add shot, low fat milk please, no foam extra hot, & a Apple Cinammon Cheese Muffin, to go。然後，用一种“treat us like we treat Bangladesh” 的犀利眼光，瞄了我們一眼，施捨些小費。

現實當然沒有想象的美，可有那麽一天，換個環境，看些人生百態，會有意想不到的喜悅。哪天，夢想實現，我會在東京的某個角落，被不容任何理由的日本老變態，罵個狗血淋頭，只因爲，他手中Green Tea Ice Blended上頭的whipped cream，比隔壁小弟弟的Black Forest Blended來得少。

PS：給看得起我，我對得起的人。

音樂，還有回憶。

好多年以前，自己是不聼中文歌的。聼的，熟悉的，都是一些金髮碧眼的臉孔。

Anggun無人不嘵的"Snow On The Sahara"。至今我還超級喜歡的Ricky Martin，那首將他推向國際舞臺的"A Cup Of Life"。Spice Girls。也該沒有人會否定她們的作品吧？當然，還有好多好多。中文，唯一很喜歡的，就只有莫文蔚。不爲什麽，就很喜歡。

進入了回音石賣命，也漸漸接觸到更多的好音樂。中文歌突破了一直以來讓我覺得死板板的印象，讓我的CD收藏從此不一樣。那段時光，好喜歡同事朋友們在臺上，唱著首首好歌。只為我而唱的好歌。任記得，好友斐斐特別為我準備莫文蔚的"拆信", 在我即將離開家鄉那一刻。怪怪又有點可愛的敏傑，每囘都很賣命，唱得像要暴斃的"外套"。百變子熒的"My Happy Ending"。情侶檔完美演繹的"One Night In Beijing"。充滿回憶，也格外覺得窩心。

在Oldtown的日子，自覺性地，想放些能夠配合環境氣氛的音樂。買了的，很喜歡的，統統放在家裏欣賞。從而，較爲年老的歌出現了。意外地，耐聼。撼動人心的辛曉琪，她的精選輯，放了又放。優客李林。王傑。童安格。當然，不能少了"鬼謎心竅"的李宗盛。也不能少了林憶蓮。想起了不久前，赴了他們個別的演唱會，被感動得不能自己。費翔？聼了也去了，非常好，一把厚實的歌聲。累得不能自己時，因爲他們，我不再浮躁。

最近，加入了新公司，意料到地，我的耳朵又要換藥了。接觸了較多的Jazz，抒情的情歌，還有更多的英文經典。昨天，選購的CD，是我一個月前，不會碰的Air Supply。之前買的Elton John，Roxatte，還有Sixpence None The Richer，又是時候，環繞我的生活，我的工作了。不能忘了，Bryan Adams。這些日子，也會由他們，為我繪出光彩。

看著CD慢慢曡高，錢砸了不少，可也換到了回憶，得到了該得的喜悅。以前聼的，現在還是很喜歡。不曾聼的，會意外地被接納。聼的不買的，也會有我們捨得花錢的那天。因爲，我們仍在生活，依舊地，成長。會有那麽一天，暮然回首，啊！我們又不一樣了。