这天。

浑浊，这是我对过去几天生活下的结论。

思绪乱时，日子跟着过得浑浑噩噩地，时间观仿佛消失无踪。然后矛盾与疑惑慢慢侵袭脑袋，寸寸剥削掉自信和力气。

一直到昨天。


昨天，新的工作环境，第一回让我觉得充满朝气。适度的忙，远远好过过分的闲。我于是，发了则短讯，探探上司的满意度。

Of coz..that's why I want you to be at upt..all the boss will be happy if the sales improve after you took over...but sad u leaving..:( 我得到的回复。

字里行间透漏的讯息，让我顿了顿，兴奋感瞬间停了。想起友人问的，我会否意气用事? 我想，不是的，再不离开，我会对这个comfort zone赖死不走了，我想。

arhhh...you pray everyday sales like this before i tender my letter lah. :D 我这么回复，最后那个smiley，有点倔强。


然后回家上网，99则Facebook notifications，将我先前的纪录狠狠刷新。

两个photo album， 117张相片，将近四十的难以替代的脸孔。大家你一句，我一句，管它是否有的没的，不理会有多自恋，嘴有多贱...读着读着，觉得煞是难得。

有人问说: so, happy lah?! 99个notifications喔...

开心，是肯定的。它是互动的结晶，友情还没触礁的证明。虚有的交情，多没乐趣。


将时间稍微调早一些些，就在我发出了那则简讯，然后还没开始上网，正回着家的路上。脑海里，反反复复着一段调调，一首歌。

SOLER的《暗器》，他们早期的作品。

暗器暗里慢慢 刺入他心扉 没有戒备
差点生了杀机 没处可避

试过设法尽力 避免触摸到你 或者紧紧抱你
紧守咫尺距离 荆棘恋上了蔷薇

没有理由，不需要道理，它的旋律，还有字字浮现的歌词，完全俘虏了当下的听觉。当我沉醉于Facebook时，耳边不停地重复着这一首歌。

于是，我向人说：唔知点解，《暗器》is the song of the day. :)

忽地，觉得生活其实很好。不需要华丽的装潢，没有勉强的话语，就只有简单的自我调整。life's indeed Magical.

你们的用心，我看见了。

那天，在我即将离去的那刻，他的表情，是那么的真切。我不知该说些什么，只能嬉弄他的感情丰富，说些让自己看来很不以为然的话。

他，是我的员工。

就算到了今天，还有人说：之前听说他一直在奉承我，是否属实? 我听了，笑笑，不甚作答。

今天，电话的那一头，他透漏的语气混淆着失望，还有无奈。我听着听着，不知能说些什么，希望自己的几句“对不起”能让他好过一点。

他，是我的上司。

有人问说：为何我不要调换至于另一个区域，这个上司有点... 我听了，只说，他对我不差。

呵呵，写着写着，想笑，冷冷地笑。

辛辛苦苦建立起来的默契，狠狠瓦解的瞬间，我办不到些什么。只能淡淡地告诉自己，我一直都以心相待。几行字，纪念我们合作的时光。

i'm just a man who isn't good with words, who acts like a headless fly when panic, & covers my true feelings with fake expressions.

the time with you all, have been a blessings, though i'm sure i've told you people countless times.

rest assured, it's etched, eternally, in my Heart.

is there anything i left out? i hope not. the things i don't tell, doesn't mean i don't care. what i've said, i meant them.

i shall return, sooner than you think. Adios. :)

Merely An E-Letter

I still remember the times when Internet wasn't popular, or affordable by many, we used to write a message or 2 on a card, enclosed it in a Red Envelope, then send them out with our most sincerity.

those were the moments, waiting never a waste of time.

it is understandable, with the speeding changes on our style of living, words often expressed in texts, & minds read via E-messages.

now in the World, waiting is such a luxurious behaviour.

i do hope, there is any chances nowadays, which i am able to disconnect myself from anything cyber, & have a good time.

so, before I sign myself off FB, to fully cherish the moments with the faces matter most for the next few days, hopefully, I am here, writing.

To all the Solermates, we will share some good tunes, 2 nice looking hot bods, & countless laughter and joy again, when the Sun rises again. which I'm pretty sure, it won't be long.

To all the talents in the mind inspiring industries, life had been wonderful, with the materials u all created. in the near future, your 'Next' is simply worth looking forward to.

To the nice people I met in every far & away land, any trips would be dull without you involved. shall we just arrange some time to meet up again?

To everyone who's working & have worked with me, it is always such a pleasure with you around. I know you all are demanding, & I am such a pain in the ass, but this is how sparkles, lights up the boring working atmosphere.

Lastly, to someone who behave like a Fly, things never end, unless we make them. i'm not sure if the situation is a rut now to u, but stay a while more, let's see if there's Magic.

love the drawing, forgot if i did tell u.

Till we meet again someday somewhere, I am here wishing you all, live well, eat healthy, spend wisely. & a great year of Tiger ahead.

Let's prosper in Love, in Life. Gong Xi Fa Cai. :)