Fire & Ice.

my friend once said I'm like Fire. easily get along, & bring everything near burn into arrays of flame.

which means i'm popular. sort of. merely on the wall of fake illusions.

i responded: yupe. bought everything up high burning, then left because i don't know how to put them off.

then this friend is like Ice. to me at the very least. freezing cool, tend to chill everyone near into statues of iceberg.

which means he's popular too. obviously. who doesn't want to try conquer & melt the icy behaviour?

he replied: *yawn* i only see ice through my eyes. Hahaha

when the 2 of us clash? is it going to be the End of the World? perhaps not.

2 of us are famous, with the different elemental character. i who like to put sparks in the group i'm in, he who try to chill away all the unwanted approaches he gets.

2 of us are poor, in the opposite site of social acts. i who would always turn people down by not keeping things warm, he who would disappoints himself by the Atlantic power of his.

2 of us are fake, what people see ain't what they are getting. i who have a diamond hard stone beyond all the smiles, he who has the warmest sparkle of light within all the stares.

when the 2 of us clash? i think it's going disaster. he will bring up the Best of his Ego, denying he's actually breaks easily. & i shall bring out just the ultimate power of Sun, to prove i'm impossible to freezed.

& the War has just begun. so as the fun.

相处。

一些东西，像电影，音乐，话语，我们会有先入为主的影响。

就说音乐好了。听惯了的，尽管并非原唱，我们会深深爱上。然后一天听见原唱，就算它是经典，我们还是觉得不太对。

还有话语。假设我们习惯了用英语和某人沟通，始终换不了其它的语言。

那么，人与人相处的模式，是否也有同样的现象?

有些人，我们不常见面，我们习惯用MSN，或FB聊天，也可以用SMS互相贬低彼此，完全像是好朋友一般。但当彼此碰面之时，会语塞，会有舌头纠结的现象。然后下一秒钟大家离开，SMS又来了，彼此又“忽地”要好了，又笑了。

究竟，我们见面时的尴尬，是怎么一回事?

又有些人，我们常见面，聊得很开，就像知道彼此肚里收着几条虫似的。一旦在网络上碰面，礼貌性地send了: HI, how are you? 再加一个笑脸，就完全停住了。忽然，彼此向陌生人版，说什么都像作假，刻意虚伪，会想到底应该说些什么。

究竟，我们不见时的陌生，是怎么一回事?

若果说，相处之道也有先入为主的方式，我会选择后者。

始终觉得，彼此碰面时的要好，会比较真诚。互动也活活地在眼前，不会受任何谣言动摇。我会相信他在网络的另一端忙着，无暇闲聊。也会相信没有再聊的必要，彼此平常说得还不够吗?

前者呢?

就由我，慢慢将你心中的冰山劈开，除非你不要。:)

Worried / 担心。

without a single doubt, i was utterly shocked, by your sudden appearance. hence, i asked: why do you come here?

i know, i must have looked uncomfortable. because i would have welcome you, just like i always did.

you smiled, & answered. what you've told, wasn't matter at all, it was the smile, that i couldn't understand. what lies beneath it, was what i wanted to know the most, but i moved my sight away.

"i tried to pull you back in the group so badly"

i worried. i wasn't ready.

afraid that what's kept in my mind might be easily seen. without a word, you can read them all. though i know they have actually shown, from the files & books i dropped during our short Q&A.

i'm not retarded. but as surprisingly as it is, i am, in front of you.

& i am. putting everything behind a shattering mask.

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你说: 谈到我的偶像，我真的...

“眉飞色舞?”，抢先一步，我接答。

呵呵。话题沿着他们打开，有官司，也有厕所自慰的笑话。

"Make sure you come to KL again. Or else...we fly to HK. hahaha. short & simple."

当官司案了解之后，我这么留言给他们。有没有矫情，我不知道。

你说，支持偶像，还是保持一点距离地好。你又说，我还真的像是家人一样，会替他们担心。

我记得我说，如果距离都已经那么近了，为何要刻意地将它拉开? 我想，那无非是勉强地把大家实在的一面加以掩饰，愚昧地骗自己说，大家都很完美。

我不记得你是否说，他还真是很真性情咧! 我没有异议，大家做回自己，不惺惺作态，那才是写实。正如我和你，不是吗?!

担心，与像不像家人没有关系。

Calling all UP6W!!! you you you you!!!

due to the konon konon overwhelming responses to my JOB last year, i was highly acclaimed by many, or just SOMEONE, to continue my service again. kononlah. :D

so here we are again, in the year of the Tiger, reunite as 1 for the 10th times since 2000.

am i making a mistake here?! are we getting this old? :P

Date & Time: 14th FEB 2010 7PM
Venue: Seow Huey's new house ( yay!! new is the word we all like )
Nak Buat Apa: Pot luck

in case any of you really Sua Gu-er than me, not knowing what is Pot luck, please Google it before you ask. hehe.

but 1st of all, the venue is not finalised, i was informed by SOMEONE, she's OK for us to bring some mess to her house on that very 1st day of Lunar Calendar.

So, what are we gonna do this time? if we are really to celebrate the aging 10th Annivesary?

please give some ideas. I am just providing a discussion room here, i am not the ORGANIZER ya!! :P

but anyway, here are something:

1. remember our reunion night falling on Valentine as well. how bout we all dress up only red & white?

2. if SOMEONE is bringing watermelons, make sure you have the effort to slice them & then serve. :P

3. i'll really appreciate if we have more sushis from SOMEONE again. haha.

4. for SOMEONE and SOMEONE who don't Facebook, can somebody please inform them what we are all up to later? the more the merrier, the merrier the messier. unless we all really want them to be unseen. haha.

5. what else?!

6. please throw in all of your ideas & comments. rubbish are too acceptable lah.

wishing everyone prosper in the coming Lunar Year. like SOMEONE shouts always: HUAT ARRR!!!

& SOMEONE said: it's kolot. hahahaha.

ABU again. ;)

7. oh ya!!! this time i write in English, because SOMEONE don't understand their mother language. :P

放眼2010。

那天晚上，我半工半娱乐到工作地点倒数。人很少，气氛冷得要命。转眼，已过了十天。

有点矛盾，仿佛自己的时间观感早已失灵。十天，像一瞬间，又像过了好久。

这一年，我没有什么resolutions，没有什么很想要突破的重围。自己知道，过去的十二个三十天，过得很好。太好，我可以这么说。也许正是这样，我怕今年比不上去年。

日子好在于我，不是拥有大笔大笔的钞票，不是住洋楼驱开篷车。不是工作岗位多高，不是多被人器重，不是出国喝洋酒的多寡。不是别人浏览我的FB与blog多少回，更不会是有多少人在我的photo album留言。

我在乎的，是当我往后看，看见多少回忆。

我尝试在一霎的光与影之中，捕捉它的精彩，化作永恒。试着在每日反复的作息当中，给自己，也给别人创造一丁点的惊喜。

当然，还有你们全部。

日子好在于我，是知道家人朋友过得好好地，是知道大家工作顺意，是知道互相理解包容，是当我看见你笑，我知道我们还在一起。

只要心还在，我们会在某处再见。

让我们一起给大家多一点信心，我们要更好。

兄弟。

万万没料到，新一年的第一篇幅，我会写这个。

以为，人说兄弟不合，大不了只是因为两人的想法不同，生活脚步不一致而已。两人，其实都好好的，就少些交际而已。

我想，我错了。

我想起很久很久以前，友人开始戏说我喜欢某某某同性时，他可以对我说：“ABU!! 要做的话敢敢去做，不要以后后悔”。

那时，我傻眼。他说的这番话，相似随口而出，却听起来那么地真挚。一句话，可以轻而易举地，俘虏大众的心。

N年以后，轮到哥哥的份。

他写：i mean don't kacau me.. i am not gay. if u want to gay, gay other place

这时，我大跌眼镜。他写的这一行子，我读了觉得他自以为是到不行。一行字，就那么简单地，让人看清他的内涵有几两重。

同样的一个话题，围绕在两兄弟身上，竟可以得到截然不同的回应。原来，看待事情的角度，方才是让人不合的最大理由。

认识了弟弟那么多年，我想，答案他是有的，真相他是知道的，根本没必要去理会大众的嬉闹，还可以落落大方地加以配合，乐乐大家。

认识了哥哥同样那么多年，我想，答案他不知道，真相他不清楚，却会自己往他人的话题里钻，丢了脸然后逞强地把面子撕破，让别人对他的印象荡然无存。

我打从心里想告诉他，他弟远远比他来得讨好，他马屁追也追不上。

我不清楚他们兄弟的感情究竟如何，但从今天起，大概也可知晓一二。因为，我有这么个性格的兄长的话，不会和他融洽到哪里。