心声。

在按下钮健之前，我犹豫了一下，然后将手机收起。雷雨已转小，我撑着伞慢慢步过人群，脑袋晃晃地。

犹豫，是因为发生的事，你不是我可以分担的人。又或，我也怀疑自己为何会在那个时候想起你?

也许，人就是这样。会在某个时段，想将话说给某个人听。他未必是很好的聆听者，也不是什么出生入死的友伴，可那时，他就是那个人。

所以，你的电话，还是响起了。

我结结巴巴地，把话收回。不让自己的心意，透过语气赤裸裸地传递到你那里。急急把交谈结束，用笑声掩饰自己。

你在那头，是否听得见忐忑的声音?

我在那个失落的时段，忽然聆听到自己心底的声音。

想起胡一虎的书。

先前得知九把刀还有Tiger胡一虎会出现于《第三届大马书市》，异常兴奋。于是乎，买了Tiger的《我是谁》，心想可以听听他的想法，也可以讨个签名合照什么的。

最后，赴了九把刀的讲座，还不赖。他很大方地让一众书迷和他一一合照，所以我排了将近一小时的队。虽然追后签名要着了，可那一次的经验对于没有相机的我来说不是很好。

然后胡一虎“爽约”没来。我一大早赶到会场才知道讲谈会取消了，代替的是胡渐彪仿效Tiger的辩论会。虽然不爽，可我还是背着《我是谁》站着看完。

老实说，见不着Tiger，我真觉得遗憾。想一睹他的风采，听听他在广播台下的想法。

读他的书才没几页，觉得一些东西很有意思。那是Tiger老爸写给他的一封信背面附上的箴言。

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话该怎么说

大事 - 清楚地说
小事 - 幽默地说
急事 - 慢慢地说
别人的事 - 小心地说
开心的事 - 看场合说
伤心的事 - 不要见人就说
没有把握的事 - 谨慎地说
没发生的事 - 不要胡说
做不到的事 - 别乱说
伤害人的事 - 不能说
现在的事 - 小心地说
未来的事 - 未来再说
自己的事 - 静听自己的心怎么说

如果对我有不满意的地方 -- 请您一定只对我说

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没想到，自己最近工作，便不停地与“说话”闹意见。

有人说：sometimes what we tell is only words, then it becomes an issue。

有的骂道：i'll take this as a reminder, & i hope it'll never happen again。

最糟糕的批评：sometimes i don't know how to teach you to be mature a bit...

难消化的，始终还是得吞下。始终得靠自己去探讨别人话中的含义，然后领会自己的弱点，加以修补。

工作上，要传达自己的想法，得确得要有一定的技巧。人会先入为主的聆听，也会将讯息慢慢扭曲成谣言。当谣言满天飞，会有人吃死猫，当然也会有人受益。

毕竟，谁不自保?

话，得学会说，同时要懂得听。

顺道：见不着Tiger的那天，已是书市最后一天。我在步出会场的那刻，瞧见两张海报，上面的消息让我更加遗憾。原来，我也错过了马哈迪医生，还有大马第一太空人...妈的！

Appreciate. Inconsiderate.

A guy never get his hot choc served. His snack was half finished so he approached to the barista. The barista was busy doing the queue's order, so he wait. His drink is finally served, & the barista apologised for being late. Sweating.

"It's OK. You're trying hard." He replied.

Perhaps even he never knew, how a simple appreciation works on other people. One words might be simple, but it means huge when it's sincere. The barista was cheered, for his effort was seen.

A lady queuing for her Regular latte at the counter. That wasn't a peak hour, yet she can't wait.

"Very slowlah! You see my frens all order from Starbugs & they are all waiting for me outside already!" She yelled. Loudly.

Of course she never knew, how a tiny inconsideration reflects on herself. One words might be simple, but it means huge when it's harsh. The barista wasn't upset, for his effort barely wasn't seen.

我写给某个曾经。

出席友人的结婚典礼，见着了好多好久没见的脸孔。

他被安排和我们同座，我向他寒暄几句，交个差。发现，他还是和好久以前一样，说话一搭没一搭的，把无聊当幽默。也察见他和以往死党的互动，没有了半点光彩。聊几句，拍张照，便被冷落一角。

以前有人常会想起他，邀他喝嘛嘛档，邀他一起看电影，一块儿在篮球场上厮杀。那时，大伙儿感情要好，天真地相信会永远老友鬼鬼。

也许，他以为，交情不用维护经营。

他开始，用忙碌当理由，拒绝了友人的邀约。一次又一次，要见个面都难，没有半点的羞愧。他听不见别人的埋怨，更看不到他人失望的神情。

由什么时候起，我开始看不起，他把别人心意任意挥霍的性格。

那晚，看他那个样，不免替他为结茧的友谊可惜。可我也想知道，那种冷若霜的感觉，是否令他也有同样的想法。

Spoiler Alert!!

I've questioned myself countless times why Eric Bana no longer portraits The Hulk in the "sequel" of the movie. Was he not good enough?! I've got no idea as I missed 'The Incredible Hulk' years ago. Thing is, I love Bana in 'Troy' & the not-sure when 'The Other Boleyn Girl'.

Alrite. So Bruce Banner aka Hulk replaced by a don't know who, which made me wonder even more before heading onto the big screen. For most superheroes flicks flopped regardless how amazed the trailer is.

But damn! This is a NOT-TO-BE-MISSED!!!

Imagine i repeatedly telling my Sinis movie mate‘好看到...’during the show. I didn't expect The Hulk coming this HUGE, though the flawless graphic & storyline helps a lot.

Sorry LeeAnn, I just don't think you would be able to direct this hyper fighting movie.

The BEST part is in the near end. When I saw him walked thru the door, I was like "My gosh! Couldn't be!!" & became extremely overwhelmed. Thus he left the crowd ( or me perhaps? ) an shocking excitement which shall only be revealed in the next installment.

I CAN'T WAIT!! TOTALLY!!

I'm impressed. They seemed to be more serious in making superheroes movies nowadays. Forget X-MEN, Fantastic 4, welcomed Ironman & Hulk & soon...The Dark Knight's finally here. Wo-hoo!!

PS: I surfed Wikipedia regarding the villain Abomination. I did get the info, & maybe some hints to the next installment. If Tony Stark is involved, then expect: The RED Hulk!

We Are All Stupid.

While waiting for his balance & receipt, a customer asked: Is the petrol price increase affecting Coffee Bean business?!

Nope! I answered. Firmly.

Not at all? He asked again. Probably he was surprised by the answer.

At that time the shop is packed, or the whole mall is to be precised. So I think again & said: Mmm...No, not really. If the people wants to enjoy, they still enjoy what?!

The customer seemed agreed. Ya, that's why I'm here. He laughed & so did I.

The "sudden" increased petrol seems to have annoyed the whole nation, & my Facebook fren even 'wondering whether he'll ever get a chance to pee on P** LA*'! This is a big burden, & the inflation followed is even worse.

So basically what do we do & what can we do? Complaints & that's it. Then we still enjoy hanging ourselves at malls or clubs. Aren't the parking fee & the expenses enough to help with the issue?

Ironic?! It is. It's like a quote from my colleague regarding smoking: Kalau harga rokok naik sampai 10 ringgit pun saya beli. Though he knows the habit is hazardous...

We might sacrificed something to cope the STUPID inflation, yet we do carry those SILLINESS & go on.