心声。

在按下钮健之前，我犹豫了一下，然后将手机收起。雷雨已转小，我撑着伞慢慢步过人群，脑袋晃晃地。

犹豫，是因为发生的事，你不是我可以分担的人。又或，我也怀疑自己为何会在那个时候想起你?

也许，人就是这样。会在某个时段，想将话说给某个人听。他未必是很好的聆听者，也不是什么出生入死的友伴，可那时，他就是那个人。

所以，你的电话，还是响起了。

我结结巴巴地，把话收回。不让自己的心意，透过语气赤裸裸地传递到你那里。急急把交谈结束，用笑声掩饰自己。

你在那头，是否听得见忐忑的声音?

我在那个失落的时段，忽然聆听到自己心底的声音。

想起胡一虎的书。

先前得知九把刀还有Tiger胡一虎会出现于《第三届大马书市》，异常兴奋。于是乎，买了Tiger的《我是谁》，心想可以听听他的想法，也可以讨个签名合照什么的。

最后，赴了九把刀的讲座，还不赖。他很大方地让一众书迷和他一一合照，所以我排了将近一小时的队。虽然追后签名要着了，可那一次的经验对于没有相机的我来说不是很好。

然后胡一虎“爽约”没来。我一大早赶到会场才知道讲谈会取消了，代替的是胡渐彪仿效Tiger的辩论会。虽然不爽，可我还是背着《我是谁》站着看完。

老实说，见不着Tiger，我真觉得遗憾。想一睹他的风采，听听他在广播台下的想法。

读他的书才没几页，觉得一些东西很有意思。那是Tiger老爸写给他的一封信背面附上的箴言。

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话该怎么说

大事 - 清楚地说
小事 - 幽默地说
急事 - 慢慢地说
别人的事 - 小心地说
开心的事 - 看场合说
伤心的事 - 不要见人就说
没有把握的事 - 谨慎地说
没发生的事 - 不要胡说
做不到的事 - 别乱说
伤害人的事 - 不能说
现在的事 - 小心地说
未来的事 - 未来再说
自己的事 - 静听自己的心怎么说

如果对我有不满意的地方 -- 请您一定只对我说

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没想到，自己最近工作，便不停地与“说话”闹意见。

有人说：sometimes what we tell is only words, then it becomes an issue。

有的骂道：i'll take this as a reminder, & i hope it'll never happen again。

最糟糕的批评：sometimes i don't know how to teach you to be mature a bit...

难消化的，始终还是得吞下。始终得靠自己去探讨别人话中的含义，然后领会自己的弱点，加以修补。

工作上，要传达自己的想法，得确得要有一定的技巧。人会先入为主的聆听，也会将讯息慢慢扭曲成谣言。当谣言满天飞，会有人吃死猫，当然也会有人受益。

毕竟，谁不自保?

话，得学会说，同时要懂得听。

顺道：见不着Tiger的那天，已是书市最后一天。我在步出会场的那刻，瞧见两张海报，上面的消息让我更加遗憾。原来，我也错过了马哈迪医生，还有大马第一太空人...妈的！

Appreciate. Inconsiderate.

A guy never get his hot choc served. His snack was half finished so he approached to the barista. The barista was busy doing the queue's order, so he wait. His drink is finally served, & the barista apologised for being late. Sweating.

"It's OK. You're trying hard." He replied.

Perhaps even he never knew, how a simple appreciation works on other people. One words might be simple, but it means huge when it's sincere. The barista was cheered, for his effort was seen.

A lady queuing for her Regular latte at the counter. That wasn't a peak hour, yet she can't wait.

"Very slowlah! You see my frens all order from Starbugs & they are all waiting for me outside already!" She yelled. Loudly.

Of course she never knew, how a tiny inconsideration reflects on herself. One words might be simple, but it means huge when it's harsh. The barista wasn't upset, for his effort barely wasn't seen.

我写给某个曾经。

出席友人的结婚典礼，见着了好多好久没见的脸孔。

他被安排和我们同座，我向他寒暄几句，交个差。发现，他还是和好久以前一样，说话一搭没一搭的，把无聊当幽默。也察见他和以往死党的互动，没有了半点光彩。聊几句，拍张照，便被冷落一角。

以前有人常会想起他，邀他喝嘛嘛档，邀他一起看电影，一块儿在篮球场上厮杀。那时，大伙儿感情要好，天真地相信会永远老友鬼鬼。

也许，他以为，交情不用维护经营。

他开始，用忙碌当理由，拒绝了友人的邀约。一次又一次，要见个面都难，没有半点的羞愧。他听不见别人的埋怨，更看不到他人失望的神情。

由什么时候起，我开始看不起，他把别人心意任意挥霍的性格。

那晚，看他那个样，不免替他为结茧的友谊可惜。可我也想知道，那种冷若霜的感觉，是否令他也有同样的想法。

Spoiler Alert!!

I've questioned myself countless times why Eric Bana no longer portraits The Hulk in the "sequel" of the movie. Was he not good enough?! I've got no idea as I missed 'The Incredible Hulk' years ago. Thing is, I love Bana in 'Troy' & the not-sure when 'The Other Boleyn Girl'.

Alrite. So Bruce Banner aka Hulk replaced by a don't know who, which made me wonder even more before heading onto the big screen. For most superheroes flicks flopped regardless how amazed the trailer is.

But damn! This is a NOT-TO-BE-MISSED!!!

Imagine i repeatedly telling my Sinis movie mate‘好看到...’during the show. I didn't expect The Hulk coming this HUGE, though the flawless graphic & storyline helps a lot.

Sorry LeeAnn, I just don't think you would be able to direct this hyper fighting movie.

The BEST part is in the near end. When I saw him walked thru the door, I was like "My gosh! Couldn't be!!" & became extremely overwhelmed. Thus he left the crowd ( or me perhaps? ) an shocking excitement which shall only be revealed in the next installment.

I CAN'T WAIT!! TOTALLY!!

I'm impressed. They seemed to be more serious in making superheroes movies nowadays. Forget X-MEN, Fantastic 4, welcomed Ironman & Hulk & soon...The Dark Knight's finally here. Wo-hoo!!

PS: I surfed Wikipedia regarding the villain Abomination. I did get the info, & maybe some hints to the next installment. If Tony Stark is involved, then expect: The RED Hulk!

We Are All Stupid.

While waiting for his balance & receipt, a customer asked: Is the petrol price increase affecting Coffee Bean business?!

Nope! I answered. Firmly.

Not at all? He asked again. Probably he was surprised by the answer.

At that time the shop is packed, or the whole mall is to be precised. So I think again & said: Mmm...No, not really. If the people wants to enjoy, they still enjoy what?!

The customer seemed agreed. Ya, that's why I'm here. He laughed & so did I.

The "sudden" increased petrol seems to have annoyed the whole nation, & my Facebook fren even 'wondering whether he'll ever get a chance to pee on P** LA*'! This is a big burden, & the inflation followed is even worse.

So basically what do we do & what can we do? Complaints & that's it. Then we still enjoy hanging ourselves at malls or clubs. Aren't the parking fee & the expenses enough to help with the issue?

Ironic?! It is. It's like a quote from my colleague regarding smoking: Kalau harga rokok naik sampai 10 ringgit pun saya beli. Though he knows the habit is hazardous...

We might sacrificed something to cope the STUPID inflation, yet we do carry those SILLINESS & go on.

好味道。

长途巴士还在行驶着，电话另一头老妈问我：在外面吃还是吃家里?

吃家里，我答。如果没有什么喜筵或特别事故，它都会是我在马六甲的选择。

踏入家门，闻到浅浅的油烟味，那是很熟悉的味道。我劳累了一天的汗臭衣服也没换下，便立刻打开了餐桌上的盖子。不出所料，老妈子见我快到了，又下厨为我煎了两颗鸡蛋。

她怕老爸吃剩的饭菜，不够。

舀了一碟已凉透的白饭，我吃了起来。那天的餐桌上，除了温热的老妈子招牌蛋，有的不过是吃剩的酱油肉碎和半碟的清炒龟豆，可我还是吃得很爽。

是的，那是家的味道，别无他处可寻。外头的食物再精致，味道再怎么甜美，却始终少了些什么。多了一份商业气息，少了心意的无限美味。

吃饱后，我呼了一句：很好吃咧！然后端着碗碟进厨房。

是哦?! 老妈子在客厅回道。然后她对同样看着连续剧的老爸说：看，他们吃外面的东西吃多了，连酱的菜都讲好吃，我还觉得今天的龟豆很老叻...

音乐，不免费。

那天，和以前的老板聊天，他说：音乐，也有便宜和贵之分。

不明白，于是要他解释。

他说：现今弄架电脑，要什么声音，还有什么效果，都可以轻松便宜弄到。但要认真制作，想要友好的音乐，每一样乐器，作一首歌分分钟得花个三五百块。

原来，被忽略的，并不表示不重要。

当mp3让音乐随手可得，背后的努力付出，便让人忽略的一干二净。有人说：没办法，CD太贵了，也说没有歌听可活不下去。

他们都不相信，音乐会有结束的一天。

究竟，有谁还真正明白，产权意识的意义？又有谁，懂得欣赏尊重认真制作的音乐人？有几个人，可以认真分辨出好的音乐？只要滥下载自己喜欢的，是否就叫作听歌？

忘了在哪里读到：一个城市小孩，画了一只六支脚的鸡。只因为，超市里的鸡腿都是六支包装出售的。

我们，渐渐忘记音乐从何而来。

为时未晚。

朋友说：如果我们马来西亚发生地震，那真的是大新闻了。

是的，的而且确。我们很幸运地，处于一个安逸，没有天灾的地理环境里。

缅甸风灾，四川地震，先前中国雪灾，还有历历在目的Tsunami海啸...我们都很完整的不被牵涉其中。

究竟，地球怎么了? 它正为自身的痛哀号，仰或一回接一回地向人类的愚昧发出警告?!

《群》里有一句话很好：当大海有了智慧，第一个念头竟是杀人。虽为虚构，却引人深思。

对那些常说“你这点作为帮不到些什么的”的人，不能理解他们脑袋里的环保意识，该怎么解读。尽了努力就好，也许微不足道，但最重要是有根深蒂固的概念，我是这么想的。

如果幸运可以任意挥霍，那也可以有用完的一天。

对已不幸遇害的人，我献上同情。

哪天，我们也可能沦为震惊全球的受害者。