"順便"說說秘密。

之前因爲友人不斷提到的關係，一二三，大家都好像給于《不能說的秘密》蠻好的評價。所以，趕在電影還沒下畫前，進電影院求證。

片的開頭，帶有偵探片的感覺。然後前半段不停的：這是一個不能說的秘密，這是一個不能說的秘密，讓我覺得，這麽"簡單愛"的劇情，會有什麽樣的結尾？孰不知，來個時空交錯，雖然有點冒汗，也算是交待的很好了。

周董的音樂造詣，早已不用懷疑。他選了音樂作爲電影的題材，實是明確之擧。一些鏡頭，像是斗琴的一段，都處理得很好。故事劇本，也照顧得很全面，看得出他是講究的。

至於桂錀嵄，則沒有太大的驚喜。不過不失，這麽說會否被人扁？還有，她的名字我寫對了嗎？

電影的開頭結爲，以致音樂掌鏡，是蠻值得讚賞的。但他始終是貪心了些。儘管沒有《黃金甲》的周潤發鞏俐劉燁作比較，他的演技始終有待進步，大進步，吧！交由他人來演，會不會好點？

不錯的電影，只能這麽說。

《色戒》

期待了這部片子好一段時間。終于，趕在第一天上映，買了很好的票入場。

有點搞不清楚自己爲何那麽期待《色戒》。捧李安大導演的場？雖然他的《臥虎藏龍》我很喜歡，可《綠巨人》還有紅得不行的《斷背山》，我卻還沒看。自己對於一個導演究竟有多重要，還有點問號。

想看梁朝偉露臀露蛋？還有片子裏連場的情欲戯？的確，任誰都想一探究竟吧？

新人湯唯，王力宏？他們對我可沒有那麽大的吸引力。

也許，這些日子以來，開始迷上了具有濃厚時代色彩的電影。細數《臥虎藏龍》，《如果.愛》，《天下無賊》，《夜宴》等；都令我看得目不暇給。很喜歡它們的細膩，儘管不可能完美。我想，這該是《色戒》吸引我儘早入場的地方。

我可是很投入的看，旁邊我的兩位大專生友人也知道。

被剪掉十分鈡激情床戯后，雖然沒有讓人看得一頭霧水，可還是大大影響了它的可觀性。看不着了它的要點，就是易先生和王佳芝的感情變化。那種獵與被獵，卻密不可分的複雜，在我們看不到的十分鈡，該數是最赤裸裸的了。

明知是個險，卻還是敵不了色慾的吞啃，而慢慢淪陷。心甘情願地，希望自己相信的，不會是最壞的可能。只要空著的一塊可以填滿，你我他，都會不顧一切地着迷。

人性，就是那麽的可譏。

越读阅酸。

翻开最近的报章，看到他她的脸孔，都有着让人称羡的俊俏可爱，却被命运残酷地捉弄，不由得心酸起来。

不想再多余谈说凶徒是多么的惨无人性，干下那么一般人无法想象的暴行。只想，将这些天的读后感，浅浅地记下。

有些奇怪，自从小努汀，NURIN的尸体被发现以后，版头出现了好多失踪少女的新闻。为何一直以来都没有被报导过？为了安抚平民的心，让大家可以很安稳地过斋戒月？还是一日没被残虐致死，事态不算严重，没有报导的必要？

可以体谅查基敏，JAZIMIN ABDUL JALIL的心情，有谁会希望自己失踪的女儿，或者任何的亲友，会是断了气的冰冷躯体。认了，等于放弃了继续寻找的可能。虽然，DNA的检验结果高达99.99％是小努汀，但还是有最后的0.01％的可能吧？

那也是为何，当她认领了小努汀，会用无奈的口气回答一再追问的记者：根据DNA报告，99.99%是我女儿。无可奈何，也没有别的选择。如果他一再坚持，非得要来第二回的DNA检验，他人会否觉得他冥顽不灵？觉得他固执地不愿接收现实？

尤其他认了女儿遗体后的崩溃大哭，泪流满面的模样，无不让人也为他难过。

然后，他能抵受的压力可以有多大？这边霜刚认了，下葬了女儿，那边霜还得面对疏忽以致儿女遇害的检控。会否有点太可笑了？他们真的认为一个三十三岁的的士司机可以有超人的抗压能力？先别管他是否真会被控，一个七八岁的小孩一个人逛夜市难道有错？难道查基敏，还有其他一众的为人父母者，得将孩子绑在身边，直到一个政府认可的年龄才可以让他们学习成长，学会独立？

可笑。我是这么觉得的。

也许，国家政府一再地提点，教会我们提高安全意识，会比事发后忽然搬个大家都不熟悉的儿童保护法令出来，杀一儆百地加诸受害人的痛，更有说服力。

还有便是，与其最后真相大白似的将一箩的失踪启事公开，搞得人心惶惶；倒不如别再尝试掩遮太多的各种罪案，加紧警力和各方安全机构的效率，会提高一两个小孩获救的可能。

多付出一份关怀和爱，学会关心和互相帮忙，我们大家都会有一个安全美好的生活环境。还是，要等到了黑暗不幸降落在我们身上，才来感叹，埋怨，纪人忧天？

希望查基敏，和他的一家大小，能快些走出阴霾，稍稍感受将近的开斋节。

真诚地祝他：SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI。

The Trio Show!

It's yet another quiet day. So quiet even you can hear a dizzy sound of a tiny fly. The MOD's just not feeling so well. Thought of getting MC but changed his mind considering man-power shortage in the outlet.

Then this fella came in. From the neighborhood Causeway Bay Hongkie restaurant. He never ordered anything, even the cheapest honey stick which costs him only 50 cents each. & he asked 4 the WIFI password from the MOD.

The MOD knew what's this fella's up to. But since it's not such a BIG deal the he gave him the access anyway. & the guy returns to the restaurant so happily.

After a while he again returned. With the pretty much smiling faces telling: "I can't get into the Internet lah. Assumingly we owed him that & must fulfill his request anyhow. & a lady's with him this time. Both so kanine to be honest.

The MOD abit fed up this time. Just let his lady staff handled the duo with excellent explanation on the access. "Eh? Bukan customer sini? I ingat mereka tu customer kat sofa sana. Kalo tau saya tak kasi mereka..." Even the staff's surprised seeing the duo leaving the shop once they got served.

"Yalah. Kalo dia datang 1 kali lagi sure saya TIAO punya" the MOD confessed.

Mana tau our tiny world is full of surprises. There's a living creatures which don't know what shame is. Nor what respect means as well?

4 the 3rd time the guy came. Oh! Not the same guy this time. But he's carrying his laptop into the shop & telling "I'm still having problem connecting to the internet..."

Halo. He's got fucked this time. "Yalah. What do you think? This is not something 4 free ok, sir?" The MOD increased his volume this time.

"OK. Then I order something now is that fine?" The guy asked. "Anything would do."

The MOD don't even give a damn. Laughed at his silliness & walked away. He's got much duty to do than serving the ridiculous trio. After the lady staff given the guy his Mocha Ice Blended, then all 3 of them moved into the shop laughing. " Outside lah. I don't think inside can smoke what..."

Sohai punya. Is this what best describe them?!

After The Mean Alot Meal...

While I was halfway writing the previous story, 1 staff goyang-goyang into the office & ask: "You kenal Lim kan?"

"Ya, why?" I asked.

"Nanti dia mau datang sini. Problem besarlah." He informed & gelak-gelak. Sure he's hiding something I assumed. "Goyang ke?"

"Takdelah. You ingat saya Zamri ke?"

Then they laughed. Happily. They've always having problems working with LYP outlet manager.

I knew what he's about. It's my regular customer over KLP. He'd promised to hand me a set of Starbucks moon cakes box set before. & he was told I've been transferred to LYP. So...again I get something just so priceless all the way from far.

Then we had a talk in LYP. About some lousy company's management. & shared some ideas in a shop so calming.

Thanx again. I've been grateful.

Means Alot Meal.

It's the 1st day of Puasa.

Most of my colleagues, especially my dear outlet manager in LYP looked so sesat. As if they're gonna passed out & heading Padang Marsha straight forward.

Then I get a call. From my outlet manager in KLP. Whom I've worked with 4 a couple of months since I joined. She sound so serious. "Tim. You ade kerja ke hari ini?" She asked.

"Ade. Closing." I answered. Thought some BIG issue happened over KLP. & I'm the 1 responsible.

"Ok. Nanti I suruh staff saya hantarkan nasi eh. Hari ini saya beli nasi untuk semua orang." Surprisingly heart warming. & she got my long & loud "Thank You..." in return.

After a short while the delivery came. By 1 of my fav staffs in KLP. So attentive & well behaved. But pity him 4 being chosen to send just a small packet of chicken rice all the way to me.

Thanks to both of them 4 concerned about me even though I was not there. It's very much appreciated. & that's what makes life wonderful. Bit by bit.

Sakit Hati No More!!

After the sakit hati incident occurred the day before, again I returned to my position as usual. Expecting nothing else but 1 fine simple day.

Went to get some US dollar as I'm heading to the 7 wonders no more Angkor Wat this coming weekend. RM1001 & get only USD286 in return. Expensive rates perhaps. But the owner Mr. Omar already given me the best rates affordable I assumed.

Then I get back in my outlet. A staff told me: “Tu...Bernard Chandran kat sana. Cakap semalam mau jumpa dia kan?”

Mana? Mana? I asked. Looked around & no sign of Dato at all. “Mana ade? You tipu ke?” thought he's bluffin.

“Ade...tu...Hujung sana. Tengok betul-betul.” With the very much convining tune while waving his heading to the sofa side.

What? I see only 1 very fit guy donning a tight white T. With a small Batman logo on top. & the hairstyle somehow 70's mat salleh. Not to forget a pair of shiny Adidas black knickers. Come' on. He must be kiddin' me. Then he insists. & bet on RM20 with me...

Then I took a chance & have a good look. Apa!! Memang betul. It's Dato' Bernard. Far more smart than I assumed he would be. My fren told me he's put on weight lately. Your head, chicky boy.

& I start goyang. Wanna asked 4 his autograph but somehow kanzhiong. Without any reason. Unable to act normal as I could with Mr.Yee before. Perhaps it's his standard & level that make me paise. That's what make difference: those we really like & those just 4 so-so fun.

He's in the shop 4 quite long. Surprisingly he speaks Cantonese. Though he's a Chindian but still weird in some ways.

His frens asking 4 ice water. A golden opportunity 4 me to be pretentious I think. Served them 3 glasses of ice chilled water & of course I make sure there's no lips stain on it. Sure kena tembak if Dato Bernard get those “sexy” gift.

At last braved myself. Took a CB card & approached near Dato. He's quite surprised & asked: “4 who 1?” “4 me.” I answered.

“Your name?”

“Tim” & he started with: Dear Tim. Then scratching on the card. He drew a sketch of a lady in a gown on it, dropped his autograph & finished with his name & date politely. Shook his hand & thank him. Think I've covered my nervousness quite well.

So sincere & gentle of him I must say. It's always nice meeting up with big names & they're not hesitate on leaving down a line. Felt welcomed. It's an essence being big probably. No ego. No big head. Just fine.

Geram. Tercekik. & Sakit Hati. :)

It had been a very messy day.

Serving all sorts of customers. Fulfilling their needs from early morning till the time every normal human being heading home after their heavy workload. Nabuei! Is that word acceptable? Imagine you get loaded by problems non-stop & most of them were by some unexpected scenarios?! Hmm. Not that I'm tired of those stupid deeds but because of my silly behavior. 1 my frens understands well.

At that time I was busy dealing with my HQ IT fella. Concentrating on the PC screen with numbers like1950.10.10.20:1520. Something I'm not into & caused by unknown reason that an office PC would get some parental control. Funny? Yes. The outlet email get blocked. Perhaps some nasty staff surfing porns? But no way as only the email inaccessible...

OK. After settling down everything, it was 7 something in the evening. Khidmat Negara 4 3hours+. Then as I'm doing my last piece of paperwork browsing, I almost got heart attack. There's an Entertainment Slip signed by my Marketing Dept Manager. Reason: Bernard Chandran visiting KL Plaza...

Couldn't believe he's in the shop 4 quite sometimes & I had no idea at all. Rushed in & out the outlet at that certain time & never noticed him. Or I should actually praise myself 4 being so concentrating & attentive? Kanine.

Asked almost every staffs 4 not informing he's here. Some said: Saya ada cakap mah. Jerit jerit Dato Bernard Chandran kat depan tapi you buat macam tak tau saje...Some goes: Siapa ta you minat sangat sama dia? Then I jerit jerit like orang utan. Though I might looked more to a hyppo.

No wonder the salmon bagel ordered by the manager was left long in the kitchen at that time. He's busy sousou with Dato Chandran while I messed with numberic PC troubleshooting. I even saw his long listed bill but I never wondered who would've ordered that much?

Speechless. Like missing something huge. Like something so close & we're unable to see it.

Kinda idolised Dato Bernard Chandran. Proud of him being such a successful Malaysian?! Nah. I'm not patriotic typo. Something nasty because of his hunkish persona? That's what some of my dearest frens mindset probably. It's his achievements & his charismatic accents inspired me most. Something I wish I'll owned someday. It's a daydream worth dreaming of.

"You are as good as how you visualize yourself. So be positive."

"Once your soul is happy, you won't even be bothered by what goes on with other people."

Knew he owned a boutique in KL Plaza & I missed him once months ago. Think he's busy with his fashion industry in Europe nowadays but yet he appeared again unexpectedly. Sign.

I told my staff: Nasib baik bukan Spice Girls yang datang sini. Kalo tak, you sure kena punye. I definitely looked stupid. & I always know.

Mr.1973

Remember "You're Beautiful"?

A song wildly popular years ago. From a CD full with an array of nice songs to melt all the sorrows & pains away.

It was him. James Blunt. & now he's back with yet another new material. Of course from his very much anticipated follow up album.

Surprisingly. It's pretty much soulful & catchy. Just like all his songs would've had.

Flawlessly beautiful. Simple as that.